Unba//anced

"Dear diary,
Mood: apathetic
My life is a spiral downward, and i couldn't get enough money to go to the blood red romance and suffocate me dry concert. It sucks cuz they play some of my favorite songs like "stab my heart because i love you" and "rip apart my soul" and of course "stab you, rip stab stab". And it doesn't help that i couldn't get my hair to do that flippy thing either, like that guy from that band can do some days"
I’m an emo kid, non conforming as can be
You’d be non conforming too if you look just like me
I have paint on my nails and make up on my face
I’m almost emo enough to shave my legs
Cuz i feel real deep when I’m dressing in drag
I call it freedom of expression most just call me a fag
Cuz our dudes look like chicks, and our chicks look like dykes
Cuz emo is one step below transvestite
Stop my breathing and slit my throat, i must be emo
I don't jump around when i go to shows
I must be emo
I’m dark and sensitive with low self esteem
The way i dress makes every day feel like Halloween
I have no real problems but i like to make believe
I stole my sister's mascara and now I’m grounded for a week
Sulking and writing poetry are my hobbies
I can't get throw a hawthorn heights album with out sobbing
Girls keep breaking up with me, it's never any fun
They say they already have a pussy, they don't need another one
Stop my breathing and slit my throat, i must be emo
I don't jump around when i go to shows
I must be emo
Dying my hair and polish on my toes
I must be emo
I play guitar and write suicide notes
I must be emo
"My life is just a black abyss you know? It’s so dark and it's suffocating me, grabbing a hold of me and tightening its grip. Tighter than a pair of my little sister's jeans, which i look great on me by the way."
When i get depressed, i cut my wrist in every direction
Hearing songs about getting dumped give me an erection
I write in a Livejournal and wear thick rimmed glasses
I told my friends i bleed black and cry during classes
I’m just a bad cheap imitation of Goth
You can read me "catcher in the rye" and watch me jack off
I wear skin tight clothes while hating my life
If i said i like girls I’d only be half right
I look like I’m dead and dress like a homo
I must be emo
Screw x-box, i play old school Nintendo
I must be emo
I like to whine and hit my parentals
I must be emo
Me and my friends all look like clones
I must be emo
"My parents just don't get me you know? They think I’m gay just because they saw me kiss a guy... well a couple guys. But i mean, it's the 2000's now. Can’t 2 or 4 dudes make out with out being gay? I mean chicks dig that sort of thing any ways. I don't know diary, some times i think you’re the only one that gets me, you’re my best friend. I feel like tacos"

this is for teenagexoutcast.....because she thinks i love this song.